Sunday, September 30, 2012


I just read Cheri's recent post and it inspired me to update my blog. I didn't realize I hadn't written since September 4. Maybe it's because we were busy with Cheri and Daniel's wedding and all the family and the fun. Maybe it's because I've been trying to (and finally did) finish Jessi's blanket for her baby shower yesterday. (It was fun!) Maybe it's because I don't think my life is very interesting.

However, after contemplating it a bit, my life is very interesting. I love thinking about relationships and how they affect us and how we need them. Even though I come home to an empty house each night, I know that I am connected to many people. I have my co-workers. They are a big part of my life because I spend most of my time at work. They share insights with me and I learn a lot from them. I also have the opportunity to work with families who are grieving. Last week I had a family come in to work on their program but then they started asking me about playing some favorite songs during the viewing. The songs were on several cds so I told them I could rip the songs and put them all on one cd. (umm 2 years ago I didn't even know what "rip" meant in the context of media.)  That way we wouldn't have to keep switching the cds. It wasn't much work but the family was THRILLED. I hope it all went off well on Saturday. It's these little extra touches that makes me want to get up each day and go to work.

The relationships I prize the most are those with my children, my grandchildren, my mother and my siblings. Today all of us who could, got together and went to church with our mom. Then we gathered at her home and shared a meal, laughs, a silly game (orchestrated by mom) and memories. Don's family had just returned from a week in Portugal and it was wonderful to visit with them and hear about their adventure. Adam brought his family too and that was nice for me. I enjoy showing off my children and having them know my family.

I had a bonus and Taylor called. Then I had a chat with David about their upcoming weekend at the Tuff Mudder and the time I'll spend with Luke. Oh the fun we'll have!

I had a chat with Whitney yesterday. It was great to hear her voice and share a little of her life.

I read Cheri's blog and felt a closeness with her.

I'm so blessed. I think I just need to remind myself of that everyday when I'm tired and noone is here to hear about my day and fix me dinner. I'm re-learning how to self-soothe (as in when babies figure out how to go to sleep on their own). I'm crocheting more and trying out new recipes. I'm exercising and watching a little more Netflix--I'm busier at my night job. (That's good and bad.) I'm looking for ideas to update my little home and make it more "me".

So life is good. Some days are better than others, but that's the way it is.

Belly laughs are also welcome!

Tuesday, September 4, 2012

Life Changes

These past 2 weeks have been hard. I realize I don't like living alone very much--ok, not at all. But don't jump the gun--that doesn't mean I want a roommate.

I'm very happy my children are doing great and are well adjusted. I guess I'm the one who isn't. So this week, I'm doing a re-evaluation of my life and trying to fill in the empty spots. My mom says I will be able to do this, that it will come in time.

I've discovered I'm very people-oriented. I like to be around people and learn about them. I adore my grandchildren but I don't want to be a busybody grandma.

So...I don't really know what the answers are at this time, but I'm going to figure it out.